Lets face it – we all want to be in complete control of our lives. We think we know what’s best for us, what we want, what we like, etc., when in all honestly we can even decide what kind of sandwich we want half the time.
It’s been almost 6.5 half months since I’ve moved to New York and on my way home last week I started thinking about all the little things: the pain, the waiting, blind faith, etc., so get to where I am. Life isn’t perfect, and as always I’m still in the constant state of “waiting,” but I have peace that the dude upstairs knows what he’s doing.
My journey wasn’t always easy. When I applied for my first PR internship, I was rejected (seven times to be exact). Slowly anger started to fill my heart and I didn’t understand why I couldn’t land an internship. I even called random companies and offered free help. Nothing happened. Shortly after I took summer classes and started applying for fall internships. Same thing – still couldn’t land an internship. Doubt started to creep into my mind. Should I be doing PR? Is this really what God wants me to do? After seeking the Lord, I knew this is what he wanted for me. Would I stick with him and trust his plan or would I quit?
I continued to persevere and apply. All I needed was one ‘yes’. However, during the “waiting” period, I made it my goal to learn as much as I could on my own. I had informational interviews with professionals in the area, watched webinars via PRSA (thank you PRSSA membership) and started a PR blog. Once I had an opportunity (I thought to myself), I would work hard, and make all of those people regret passing me up. While I was able to find a semi-internship during the summer after calling West Oaks Urgent Care (which was great because the doctor worked with my school schedule), I started thinking about fall 2013.
After four more rejections, I put my trust in the Lord. I gave up control and gave it to him. One day I received an email from the Baylor journalism department about an internship opportunity with InterviewStream. Not only was it paid, but it was a semi-startup (which is rare in Waco). I decided to apply because at this point what did I have left to lose?
A couple of weeks after I received an offer. Thinking back this was the best thing because it cemented my love for Tech PR. It also helped me land an internship with Walker Sands which then led me on the path to Weber Shandwick Dallas and then NY in their global technology practice. Additionally, if I hadn’t taken those summer classed that summer, I wouldn’t have graduated on time.
It’s been a long journey and it’s obviously not over, but it’s amazing to see how far God can take us when we trust him. The best things do come to those who wait, but what are we doing during our waiting period? Are we sitting on a couch eating/drinking our sorrows or are we taking the time to draw near to God and trying to become the best version of ourselves? God sometimes tests us to see how badly we want things and if we’re going to stick with him during the trials.
No one likes to wait, especially if you’re as impatient as me, but like Proverbs 3:5-6 says:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”
Give God control over your life because he knows what he’s doing Also know your waiting isn’t in vain.
– The Real Swaggy P